As I sit by the fire, enjoying a quiet morning before the sun rises, I am filled with peace. It is as if the warm flames of the fire are drawing me in and I am content at just watching them bounce around in the dark of the living room. I love mornings like these. They fill me with excitement and hope for the day.
I can start each day reflecting on all the beauty that surrounds me and that is a great place to be. It is in these moments that I dream and envision all the possibilities of life. My mind runs wild, and it is both elating and overwhelming, because I want it all. Sometimes I catch myself coming up with the craziest plans and then think, bring it back to reality girl, but I get to dream!
I think it is necessary to dream and hope, even if they never work, it moves me forward instead of focusing on what I used to be. There is a quote by Heraclitus “No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.” Growth can be so hard, because we want to hold on to who we used to be, be we are never the same person we used to be. I think that held me back for so long, the holding on to a version of myself. Then, the fear of becoming something new paralyzed me. I am beginning to love the new me, and guess what I will be a new me for the rest of my life because I am moving forward. I acknowledge the person I was I celebrate her because without my past I would not be who I am today.
I am proud of the life I have led and want to continue to be proud of the time I am still here. Today I sip my tea and marvel at the beauty of life. We get moments, and it is up to us on how we use them. I want to use them thinking of the positive things in my life. There are hard days, but I know that they will not last forever, and they make me appreciate the good days that much more.
As I start to wind down my time of meditation and reflection I try to always end with gratitude. When I live my life in a place of gratitude it helps put it all in perspective. Even on my hardest days there is always something to be grateful for.
Today I am grateful! Grateful that I am not treading water to stay alive, but slowly dog paddling my way to a beautiful place. I am grateful that I can spend a few moments in quiet time with God before the crazy of the day gets underway. I am also grateful that today I woke up and thought you know what I am worthy, I will get into the arena of life and live, win or lose I will have done my best.
Conquering Momma,
Charity