In what seems like an endless cascade of desperate feelings brought on by the chaos of the world around us, I love when I can unplug and watch something that makes my heart fill with joy. I love the show Call the Midwife on Netflix. It presents the vulnerability of life, the triumphs, and the challenges. But mostly I end up feeling that it represents life.
Recently a quote from the show has really stuck with me, "Sometimes I think we need to see where the Lord has put us and with who and do things his way." I struggle with letting go of control of what I think my life should look like and living the life that God has placed me in right now. I ache for things that I currently do not possess, such as stability, a career, and local friendship. The Lord has put me where I need to be and I need to use this as an opportunity to stop and re-direct my focus. That doesn't mean ignore my dreams and desires, but to take a moment and appreciate where I am at and know that this is part of the journey towards my dreams.
If you take anything away I hope it is to never lose faith that you are exactly where you were meant to be. We go through seasons in our life and in each season God is asking us to let go and trust in him. Some seasons this seems easier than others, but if we are willing to let go of the reins and let God take control, we can't even imagine where God will lead us.
Keep dreaming, know that God knows your heart and your dreams, he had a plan for you before you were even born. The road may look like it is zig zagging through the forest to you, but to God the zig zagging is molding you and forming you for what he created you to become. I love looking back at a particularly hard season and seeing that without that season I would not be the person I am today.
Some days all we can do is stop for a moment and repeat the serenity prayer "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference." I am going to start adding the line "Lord I am letting go of trying to control everything and residing in the knowledge that you hold me in the palm of your hand and you have put me right where I need to be, even if I don't know why yet."
May your day be blessed with seeing the beauty around you in the simple things, the birds chirping, the sun shining down through the clouds, laughter, and the simple fact that we are here to take another breath.